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Refocus: Experiences. Not things.
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the counselor stopped me, he looked me dead in the eyes, “why do you not like yourself?”
I sat there. hoping he would just move on.
“bethany, why do you not like yourself??”
i couldn’t object. i didn’t know what to say. tears welled up in my eyes. i didn’t know the answer.
i just know it’s true.
i do not like who i am.
he said I will never be able to truly love my husband until I learn to love myself.
i almost cried. i want to love my husband. i want to love him well. i want to fully give myself to him. but i can’t.
i don’t even know who i am.
the counselor had me take the Myer’s Brigs Personality test. the results came back describing someone completely different.
[ i realized, you have to know your self, at least a little bit, to answer questions about yourself to see the larger scope. ]
so first things first…
I have to know who I am…
I have to actually like who I am…
I have to love myself.
[ all the flaws. scars. insecurities. short comings. mishaps. bad choices. doubts. fears. etc. ]
Mark 12:30-31
30 Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.’[a]31 The second is this: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’[b] There is no commandment greater than these.”
I am doing this for my husband.
Holy Spirit, who am I? Jesus, brace me for what I discover.
therapy session #2
Thousands of tired, nerve-shaken, over-civilized people are beginning to find out that going to the mountains is going home; that wildness is a necessity; and that mountain parks and reservations are useful not only as fountains of timber and irrigating rivers, but as fountains of life.
—John Muir (via awakenthisspirit)
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Plato said you must know thy self.
Socrates said you must prove thy self.
Jesus Christ said you must give thy self.
Who am I? How do I prove what I don’t know? How do I give what I can’t prove?
WHO AM I?
therapy session #1
3 things
1. The way my husband loves me
2. An unforgettable New Years with friends
3. A good read (Hunger Games)
therapy
found the courage. made the appointment.
baby steps. first of many.
